弗吉尼亚·伍尔芙绝笔我撑不下去了
Tuesday, Dearest,
I feel certain I am going mad again. I feel we can't go through another of those terrible times.
And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can't concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness.
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You have been in every way all that anyone could be.
I don't think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work.
And you will I know.
You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read.
What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you.
You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that - everybody knows it.
If anybody could have saved me it would have been you.
Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer.
I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been. 周二, 亲爱的:
我觉得很快又要疯掉了。我不认为我们还能挺得过又一段饱受煎熬的苦日子。 我的病情不应该在这时候有所好转。我(脑中)开始听到(奇怪的)声音,而且变得心
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神不一。
所以我打算一劳永逸,一了百了。你已经给我所有一个女人该有的幸福。 你已经做到了为人丈夫的能做到一切。
要不是因为病魔,我曾以为我俩是世上最快乐的人。
我撑不了了。我很清楚我是在破坏你的生活,没有我,你本可以忙你的事儿。 我想你,很快就能这样了。
你看,我现在都不懂该怎么写了,我说不下去了。 我只想告诉你我是欠你太多,说好的幸福我都没给你。 你对我总是十分耐心,几乎无微不至。
我想说,要是谁曾救过我,那只有你。这个大家都懂。 要不是有你对我好,我早已是一无所有。 我不能再继续破坏你的生活了。 我想,我们曾是这个世界上最幸福的人。
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